#6yearsago -02

I’m having a breakdown kind of night. I don’t know what’s happening with me. With my life. All I know is I’m not happy. I’m going through the motions, I’ve done this for long enough to know what to do. But when you try to fool everyone around you, you end up fooling yourself too. If you have a direction and are on a planned path, you never know what’s passing you by, going 130 mph in the opposite direction. It could be what you’re secretly hoping for. What you really need. But you’re too afraid to stray from the path. Life will get chaotic. Yet I think that’s exactly what I need. To find something meaningful and beautiful in the chaos. Keep yourself guessing. How fun to not know what you will do next.. My soul is searching for something more. I desperately crave change.